Farewell 2019


Another year has come and gone, in the blink of an eye as they tend to do. As we move into a new decade, I move into my 40s. It’s kind of terrifying. I don’t feel 40. I feel 16, but then I suspect that most of us don’t feel our age.


I feel like my 30s were really my decade. It’s when I came into my own and finally saw myself turning into the confident woman I’d always imagined I could be. I moved away from the messiness of my 20s and settled down to the business of discovering me. Am I perfect? Not even close. Am I the best version of myself that I can be? Unlikely. However, at least I know that it’s a process. A life-long process I suspect. At 31 I went back to school (I took a publishing program – a huge mistake) and moved to a new city and province. I spent three years there having fun and making some life long friends but not doing much else. It was great.

I moved home at 34 to greet my nephew and finally settle down into the career I was meant for. I starting dating the love of my life, moved in with him, bought a house with him, got a kitten with him, and next month I’m marrying him. Not a bad start to 40.

Life is a messy business and rarely turns out the way that we think it will. When I was (very) young I saw my life rolling out in the conventional way – career, marriage, and kids. It wasn’t until my 30s that I finally understood that that was not my path. I don’t live a conventional life but I do live a life rich in friendship (long distance for the most part, but oh well), love, and simple joys like reading, good food, and a lot of laughs.

This is my last post of 2019, the next few weeks are going to be spent with my loved ones. I wish you all the best for the coming year and the coming decade. Thank you, dear reader, for following along.

8 thoughts on “Farewell 2019

  1. Best wishes for the New Year and new decade (both you – 40 – and the calendar one). I know I certainly didn’t do the traditional life plan either but everyone has their own path to travel and no 2 paths chart the exact same course (how boring would THAT be?).

  2. This is a short post but it hugely resonated with me! I’ll be turning 30 next year and I’ve taken a break the last month or so to really think about where I’m going in life. My life is definitely not where I thought I would be… I was like you where I thought… work work work, make a career make money and live then. I’ve realized that that thinking was only hurting me and making me unhappy. Cheers to your 30s, the start of your 40s, and continuing to feel like fun, energized 16 year old women!!
    My goal as I go into my 30s is to live life and do more of what makes me happy. I hope you have a great start to 2020 and close out 2019 with a bang!

    Des | https://www.itsbetterinheels.com

  3. You sound like you’ve learnt so much about yourself this past decade. I’ve also heard that from a lot of people that they really came into themselves in their 30’s. I’m 27 and I feel SO far from figuring it all out! x

    1. Well, I don’t think anyone ever has it all figured out but I’ve found that with age comes confidence:)

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